this winter break is supposed to be a time of mental and physical rejuvenation but all i feel so far is saturated in misery.
it seems like stress and sadness are both stubborn things, at least to me.

All i want to do is escape these and wrap myself up in snow and christmas lights and the smell of pine and forget about everything terrible.

lol.

i love you guys.

tonight was great.

thanks for being my friends. i'm going to miss you all so much after school is over.

winter break is here for everyone but me and my GEOL 411 class. thank you professor kneupfer for ruining this week and piling on the assignments. just got my 15 page paper back. looks like i need to rewrite the entire thing. who knows how long that will take me to redo the research and rewrite everything. i didn't know it was as bad as it was. i'm also still finishing the last lab from his class. winter break, you are so close but so far away. seriously, i'm crying right now. this is the worst semester ever. i just want it all to be over so i can celebrate with everyone else.

This is the most stressful finals week I've ever had. I don't even have any finals left, but my professor decided to pile all this work on us the last week. So I have an impossible lab to complete, and a 15 page paper to revise that he STILL hasn't gotten back to me to revise. When I emailed him about it, he told me he was getting it done tonight (that was yesterday) but I still don't have it. I just want to be done. I want the stress to end.

Why is everyone so angry?

Sometimes I just want to tell people, even my teachers, just chill the fuck out. Everyone is stressed out this time of year. The least we could do to ease some tension is not to get mad at everyone who talks to you. Is it really necessary to yell or belittle someone when something was an accident?

I hate when people talk to me, or others in that condescending tone. You all know what tone I'm talking about. The tone of voice you use when you're trying to make someone feel stupid. I HATE that. Making people feel bad about themselves is a terrible thing to do.

I want to cry for people, or hug them or something.

Bitch, you can't quantify and compare the amount of facts we might have floating around in our brains, please don't pretend that you are smarter than me.

I'll just take the C. I'm not going to bother stressing over getting good grades anymore because I've stressed enough and it's just not worth it. I'd rather be happy and healthy with a C that won't even matter once I'm done with school than sick and stressed out trying to get an A or even a B for 2 classes just so I can feel good about my grades. I've done well so far, and I don't think my life would be worth living if I didn't have a good time. This work is impossible and I'm sick of trying to figure it out. I'm going to party tonight. I don't care. I'll take a C. As long as I pass. I don't care. I don't care. Just get me out of here. I want to go home. I don't fucking care. It's not worth the stress.

i seem to have no motivation to do my work. several assignments left and i'm sitting here procrastinating when i could be done and doing more important things like flirting with the guys next door.

GUH!